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For me, becoming isn’t about arriving somewhere or achieving a certain aim. I see it instead as forward motion, a means of evolving, a way to reach continuously toward a better self. The journey doesn’t end.” . —Michelle Obama
So this is 51
when I was in my 20’s I’d answer our front door and ‘they’d ask’ is your mom home?
(that bugged me)
when I was thirty…I was often told you look so young.
(i kinda liked that)
when I turned forty…I still felt/looked quite young (for 40) (i REALLY liked that)
Somewhere after that, life caught up ….
I’ve had some resistance to aging….
yet…. all of me…. has lived…all of this….
and I’m still showing up….
A few years into my forties….a lot happened.
My son discovered alcohol, then drugs.
that was the beginning of 11+ years of fear and turmoil….
then came the big C
John was diagnosed with Leukaemia….
and who knew … 6 years later…. we’d still be trying to figure his disease out.
I’ve been feeling some pretty intense birthday blues.
‘is this where I thought I’d be?’
‘i had so many goals…. then life came along with its own plan.’
'If it was up to ‘my plan’…. things would have been so different.'
That’s not the way it goes.
As I write this and ponder that….
I know… I’m probably not alone…. We often imagine one life… and it somehow becomes a whole other.
The real work is how we decided to ‘think about it.’
This is the gift. This is our choice.
This morning… my tummy was a little flippy…
I don’t have anxiety but I felt tears bubbling up.
Thinking how things should be a certain way at this stage. (and they're not)
I could get super raw and tell you the ways…but I don’t think I need to.
Wherever you are on this journey….
lean in….cause this is happening….
You've got this. We’ve got this.
A whole ton of love to each of you that follows along.
I share this because my ‘cure’ for the birthday blues is to do 51 tiny good things (for the people in my life)….before this day ends.
I’m on #7….so I best get busy.
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